So we had a peri appointment and my cervix looks great! It's measuring 5.6, which is really good and long. I was pleasantly surprised that they took all kinds of measurements for growth, so we got to see the baby kicking and flipping all over the place. I'm measuring 16 weeks and the tech and my peri also both said boy! I don't know why I'm still not convinced but you can verify it yourself with the picture below. I went to see my OB right after the ultrasound and he was very excited about my cervical measurement. He actually told me that from now until my next appointment, I can actually go out to dinner or a movie if I want. I was so excited! Rob and I went straight to dinner at a new Thai place and it was amazingly good. The baby liked it too because he was kicking up a storm. I've been feeling kicks all week now which makes me happy. They aren't super strong but they're definitely noticeable. It's one of my favorite parts of pregnancy. :)
I'm not feeling happy or sad at this point...pretty neutral. I think because I'm still over a month out from my 'danger zone'. Week 20 to 24 are going to be very difficult for me and I'm not looking forward to it at all. I can't even think of the future past that point because I'm not convinced that I'll ever get there. I so wish I could see the future. What I wouldn't give to know 100% that this baby was coming home with me and then I could have a blissful and happy normal pregnancy. I could actually have a baby shower, buy things, set up a nursery...it would all be too easy!