Saturday, March 24, 2012

12 weeks!

Well, here I am at 12 weeks! The good news is I'm still pregnant and I haven't been bleeding anymore! We really won't know anything more until two more weeks at my next ultrasound, so I just have to be patient and hope for a miraculous healing. I actually feel just fine physically so that makes this especially difficult to lay on the couch all day. I forgot how hard this bedrest was but it's all coming back to me now! We've had to hire a nanny to come take care of Benjamin during the day and help around the house and then poor Rob does everything all evening and weekend to take care of Benjamin and I. Our church family and my mom have been really great and are helping a ton and providing meals, so we are very thankful for that! I've been good for the most part but I've had a few rough emotional days. My mind can't help but wonder if I'm going to have to say goodbye to another baby and the anticipation of not knowing is hard. I'm just trusting in the Lord for strength to get through this.

I've pretty much completely popped out so I thought I'd take a belly picture. Baby was measuring a week ahead so I'm guessing he's about 13 weeks now. And yes, I think it's a boy. :)

Monday, March 19, 2012


Well, I saw the high risk OB today and was given a very bleak diagnosis. The baby is measuring a week ahead and looks great but there are several issues going on. I have a low lying placenta, which is causing some bleeding, but it may move up so it's not a huge concern at this point. I also have a massive subchorionic hematoma that is surrounding half of the baby and sac. There is blood and blood clots pooled up everywhere and he said I'll probably bleed throughout my entire pregnancy. This hemtoma is a huge risk to the baby and if it grows any bigger the baby could die. It is also causing part of the placenta to detach from the uterus as well as the sac layers to separate and if either of these two things continue or get worse, the baby will die. The specialist said things look "very bad". It looks like I will need to be on bedrest for the duration of the pregnancy. I have a follow up appointment on April 6th to see if things have improved. Apparently this is another fluke. Wow, what are my chances, right? Please pray for miracle!

This diagnosis makes me realize even more what a miracle Benjamin is. Sometimes I still can't believe he is ours and we got to bring him home!

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Prayers Appreciated!

Well, I was definitely expecting a little bit of craziness with this pregnancy, since I'm supposed to get the cerclage in a few weeks, but was really hoping for some smooth sailing! Guess I was a little too optimistic. :) I'll be 11 weeks on Saturday and this past week I started bleeding bright red! I was quite shocked but actually stayed pretty calm and was wondering if maybe I was going to have a miscarriage at 10 weeks. I went to my OB and had an ultrasound and the baby looked great and the heartbeat was strong, which was such a relief! So I was told they don't know why I'm bleeding and to take it easy. Everything was good for about 48 hours and then I had another bleeding episode yesterday. So I'm back to laying on the couch. I honestly am thinking maybe I have a sub chorionic hematoma, but they told me it was too early to tell, which I find interesting because many people are diagnosed with this as early as 5 or 6 weeks. So it just makes me think my doctor's ultrasound machine isn't good enough to see one. Anyway, I already had my high risk appointment scheduled for Monday so I'm hoping they can tell me more after an ultrasound with their high tech equipment. I've never had bleeding in the first trimester before but hey, there's a first for everything right? I've been praying a lot and I am definitely feeling the prayers of others so I know that is giving me peace. I'm just trying to trust in Jesus and am really hoping this baby makes it home this fall! One fear I have is that I don't think I can get a cerclage if I'm bleeding so if this keeps coming, we might be in trouble. Prayers are definitely appreciated!