34 weeks!

Wow, another week down. From here on out, if I go into labor, they're not going to stop me, so that is scary and exciting! Contractions are all the same, but I have had some pulling and pain down there and 1 day I had a little spotting, so my OB thinks my cervix might finally be starting to change and it's pulling on the stitch. Scary! I still have another 2 weeks before the cerclage comes out so hopefully nothing major happens before then. I know someone that just had their cerclage removed and they went into labor and delivered the next day! That makes me think he could be here is 2-3 weeks. It still doesn't seem real to me...at all. I see pictures of babies born at 34 or 35 weeks and they look so cute and perfect and I keep thinking to myself "there's no way my baby could look like that". It's just so hard to imagine.

My nesting has finally kicked in, which is bad since I'm supposed to take it easy. I've been tackling little things each day, like cleaning and reorganizing the laundry room, so that I have room for the drying rack that I just ordered. I've been wanting one forever and with cloth diapers, I'm going to need one. I also cleaned and organized our home office, which was a huge task and was a little too much for one day. I paid for it big time with a ton of contractions. I also finally started washing some baby clothes and blankets so that I could pack stuff for the hospital bag. That was a huge step, although I'm still not removing any tags from the few new things I have. I'm making Rob bring in the dresser/changing table today so that I can start putting things away. That also scares me a little but I'm excited to put stuff away and the practical me really wants to get things ready. This is all so unreal to me. I can't even explain how emotionally draining it is.

Still waiting for my maternity CD, so I decided I should probably take another picture. Here I am at 34 weeks!

I also wanted to add that I'm super excited about a new book that is coming out. There is a blog I follow (see Bring the Rain on the sidebar). The author is the wife of the lead singer of a group called Selah (didn't know about them when we named the girls). They lost their daughter as well and she started a blog and she finally wrote a book about it. This sounds like the exact type of book that I was looking for after I lost each of the girls and was never able to find one. I'm actually not sure when it's coming out, but I'll be stalking Amazon, since it's on pre-order right now. Just wanted to share because I'm really excited about reading it. I think it's going to touch and bless a lot of people.